“If I like something, I’ll stick with it.”

I’ve been stickin’ to this one for about a year already.  It hasn’t been all shits and giggles either.  It’s been tough.  I’ve been chewed, spat out…and I’m still here.  I’ve been pushed away, put on pause, put on the side…yet I still stick around. Why? Truth be told. When things are great, they’re super great. But when things suck? They SUCK SO BAD.  I’ve heard “he’s no good for you, you deserve better, you’re settling for less” and everything in between.  I’ve basically heard every reason to NOT stick around.  Call me stupid, go on.  Ask me why I stick around, and I’ll tell you I don’t know why, I just do.

I guess I don’t know anything at all, either.

Maybe I like the madness. The chaos. The struggle. The feeling of giving up, but finding strength to go a little more.  Nothing good comes easily, right? Did anyone ever say how hard it’ll be to get to this something “good?”

Just recently, I met someone who’s got everything going for him.  Smart, he could teach me many things, he’s funny, great personality, handsome, nice and so on.  He excels in every aspect, but…what?

I don’t get excited when I see this new fellow. I don’t feel like running up to him and jumping on him.  I don’t feel like playing video games with him. I don’t feel like wrestling with him. I don’t feel like watching Conan O’Brien with him.  I don’t want to see anyone else do a stupid “monkey scratching his ass and flinging poo” dance at the bar but the someone I’ve been seeing/dating/talking to/whatever “we” are.

Everything I feel with the sketchy character I mentioned in the beginning of this useless blog makes sense to me. I need this sketchy character. More than I let him know.  He’s all wrong for me, yes.  Things get ugly, but ain’t that how you find the beauty in things? Ugly shit up a bit.  I mean..I could be wrong. I could be missing out on something great by passing on the new fellow, but when I find something, anything I like…I stick with it.

This beautiful struggle I’ve been fighting? I’m game to go another 10 rounds.  I can truly say..I haven’t met anyone quite like Mr. Sketchy.  To annoy me, to make me angry and then two seconds into it find some silly way to make me laugh at it all…bahh.

Guess I’m not too stumped after all.

Night Tumblr-tweaks.

freshpoop:

pursuit of happiness by kid cudi

one more time for the fuck of it just cause the song is dope and video is off the chain.

kiddrewbot:

want technology

SICK. WANT!

missweed:

thelookoflove:

(via mirabellaaaa)(via tiresome)

missweed:

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thatscheesy:

Just wait till he staarts singin’

merodree. :)

tamaradee:

dopesole:

joepeezy:

i just LOVE upper playground

i have this shirt!

sam flores. :)

ranierninja:

One of my fav cult classic movies…

Veritas Aequitas. All they did was live a humble life, keep God close, killed only those who brought injustice, and they were pretty damn funny too. Definition of badassery, yet goodness in the heart.

BOONDOCK SAINTS! I concur. Definition of badassery, indeed. & it’s available on blu ray! Niiiice! The second one looks almost as good as the first. Wooooot.

:D

drizando:

I recently came across this fine lady and needless to say, she’s got one hell of a talent with spoken word. Beauty definitely begins on the inside with this female. Check her out:

http://youtube.com/AbetSpeaks

http://abetspeaks.wordpress.com